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I knew it!

So, I WAS pregnant, and am now miscarrying... I've got to call tomorrow to cancel my appointment for an ultrasound. This is the third time it's happened! I'm relieved, although it'd be great to have another baby... I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I'm glad I have a little while longer with my little boy before he grows into a big boy.

Gosh, Lukas is such a hoot... He brightens my sad little day up so much. I've done nothing but sat in pj's all day watching How I Met Your Mother... He's tried to clean the floors for me haha. First, a broom... he tried to sweep the floors! Then, a mop... He mopped them for me. MAN, my little man is the greatest, thinking of his mommy. I still find it a little weird to be called mommy, although it's been almost 14 months since I've become one. But all in all, it's a great feeling.

Disagreeing

Last night my husband told me he only wants one kid... After telling me numerous times that he wants several... I ended up becoming very sad. I mean, I dreamt of a family of 3-4 kids not just one. I started thinking... Well, If he only wants one kid, where will our future go? I mean, one day I'll want another and I'll bring it up, and he'll try to shut me up by ignoring me or telling me to shut up. I don't want that.

I ended up moping really bad about it... And Richard told me to stop, and that he was only joking. Well, it's not funny. In fact, nothing you say is funny... It HURTS. Not like he's going to read this anyway, and if he does he'll probably mope and mope and mope as if I did something TERRIBLY wrong that crushed him real badly and then try to get me to agree to only having one kid... which I wont do.

It doesn't help that people are trying to tell us not to have anymore... that one is a PERFECT number... Well guess what, I think THREE is a perfect number. Maybe even FOUR. I want a big family, and nothing is going to change my mind.

Introduction

Hello! My name is Kayla, and I'm the mom to a handsome 13 month old boy Lukas! With a K, not a c. It's funny how many people spell it wrong... Especially online, when I spell it Lukas and they see that it's spelled Lukas...Yet still spell it Lucas. Haha. Anyways, I'm 19 years old and am pretty easy to get along with. Being a mom has got to be the best things I've ever experienced. Being a teen mother, people are shocked at me when I say I'd rather be at home with my baby boy then go out partying! Just not my thing.

So, I don't know what else to say...
So I'll say this:


I'm a co-sleeping, co-showering, Anti Cry it out, Anti Circumcision, Attatchment parenting, unconditional parenting mother to a really big mamas boy!