Disagreeing

Last night my husband told me he only wants one kid... After telling me numerous times that he wants several... I ended up becoming very sad. I mean, I dreamt of a family of 3-4 kids not just one. I started thinking... Well, If he only wants one kid, where will our future go? I mean, one day I'll want another and I'll bring it up, and he'll try to shut me up by ignoring me or telling me to shut up. I don't want that.

I ended up moping really bad about it... And Richard told me to stop, and that he was only joking. Well, it's not funny. In fact, nothing you say is funny... It HURTS. Not like he's going to read this anyway, and if he does he'll probably mope and mope and mope as if I did something TERRIBLY wrong that crushed him real badly and then try to get me to agree to only having one kid... which I wont do.

It doesn't help that people are trying to tell us not to have anymore... that one is a PERFECT number... Well guess what, I think THREE is a perfect number. Maybe even FOUR. I want a big family, and nothing is going to change my mind.